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I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO TODAY THIS WHOLE MONTH!! I signed up for a crafting meetup in the city and I was so excited because it means I actually got to socialize with people and make some new friends. Lowkey, getting there was rough because there is nothing worse than Atlanta traffic at 5pm. I got to the parking garage and started freaking out because it said you had to type your card info into the website and I thought I forgot my card and I had a whole moment over it... Only to realize my card was in my wallet the whole time and I hadn't even thought to look there because I didn't think it was in there... omg. So when I was walking into the bring your own craft event I was pretty frazzled because of that whole moment, and I was worried I wasn't going to be up for finding people to sit with but I got waved over by the sweetest couple almost immediately. They showed me their crafts they were working on and we chitchatted through the night, and I got to show them my website as well. I had a good time! I hope I see them at the next event!

After the craft night I went to see what my boyfriend has been working on for his research. He and his team is building an exoskeleton I believe, and he was working on a part for it. He needed help sewing so I got to teach him how to sew, and also got to see the space he works in which was super cool.

This weekend we are going down to a friends lakehouse and even though it is fucking freezing I am prayingg we get to use the hottub! I'm so excited! I honestly haven't been up to too much these past few days, just been super lazy working on my website. I have been thinking a lot about death lately, and spiraling to the point of panic attacks. Everything somehow feels so real and unreal at the same time. I just want to hide away surviving for a few days, not feeling real. I feel like I am wasting so much time though. This week I am starting up studying for the LSAT so I can get a score I want. Hopefully the grind goes well and will distract me from my own thoughts. This day was a very lazy day for me. My boyfriend had to go work on a project so I just chilled in his room most of the day. A friend of mine invited me out, so I met up with a couple of people to go out to the clubs. It had been awhile since I've gone out so I was pretty excited. One of the guys we were out with knew the area pretty well and showed us a lot of good spots to hit. The bar we ended up at had a lot of games to play, and we ended up playing bocce ball. I had never played it before, but I was going so crazy the team we were playing against thought I was lying. They said we probably hustle people over to destroy them at the game. We were winning by a ton at first, like 11-4, but they came back to beat us. It was a ton of fun and their group had super high energy, and some employee came over and asked if they could take pictures of them playing since it seemed like they were having so much fun. One of the girls told me I was a baddie and I was so flattered but I am also so awkward so I didn't know how to reply so I just said thank you!! But I wish I had been like you too and maybe gotten her instagram or something. Easy new friend opportunity that I missed omg. After that bar we headed to another bar, and played a few more games. I hadn't drank anything and I was super tired so I was lowkey ready to leave.

Happy Valentine's Day! I was really excited for Valentine's today since I haven't seen my boyfriend in a bit, so I spent almost the whole day getting ready to see him. I found a really cute dress thrifting and I wanted to wear it to see him but I am lowkey too tall for it. I took a lot of pictures in it and then I put on pants underneath it to actually go outside lol. Here's what it looked like.

I had told my boyfriend I didn't really want to go out for dinner since I'd rather avoid the traffic and craziness on Valentine's, so he said he would make me dinner. I knew he was making me dinner but he suprised me with this cute little set up in his room.

The food he made was so good, and he was all dressed up in a suit. We had some tiramisu for desert which was so bomb, and after we ended up playing some SpiderHeck with his roommate. It was a super chill night and I'm glad I am dating such an amazing man.

I have been putting off building my webstie and just browsing other people's like crazy to get inspired. I have a lot of ideas for what I want to do and I'm really excited but I also tend to overwhelm myself when I plan too much. I hope I stay consistent because I am really enjoying this.

In other news, I have been working out everyday, and playing a ton of volleyball. I have met some new people and I am hoping soon they will be new friends. The more consistently I show up the more people come up to me to talk. I'm excited to get to know everyone, even though I get nervous talking to new people. I've been feeling really lonely lately, so some new friends would be good for me. Tomorrow is Valentine's Day, and I haven't figured out what to get the BF, but later today I am going to make him something for sure.

Okay this took so long to put together and I want to die now. That's all for today. I also am watching the superbowl. Very epic.

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